Be Afraid

Often I think “How can I grow closer to God?”  And there are many answers to this question.  I can pray, read my Bible, have time in solitude.  All of these things will bring me closer to Him.

But, none of those things can guarantee that I will give my life over to Christ.  That I will completely surrender.  The only thing that I can think of that would actually do that is risk.  Taking a risk, doing something that scares the socks off me, something that truly overwhelms me, is the only way I’m guaranteed to give myself over to God.

Just over three years ago we traveled to Ethiopia to meet our son.  Our paperwork said that he was 3, but when we met him it was obvious he was older.  He did not speak a word of English and we had one a few words in Amharic, which probably sounded absurd to him.  “Pee?”  “Poop?”  “Drink?”  “I love you.”  He must have thought he was being adopted by the most profoundly ignorant people in the world who could only ask questions and speak in single words.  Except of course “I love you”, which, if I’m honest, was not entirely true at the moment, as I was freaking out that I was going to be taking this Ethiopian home with me for the rest of my life!  And wouldn’t you think it was odd if a random person (whose skin was the color of no one you had ever seen) started to say “I love you?”

My husband and I were afraid.  It was scary.  We second guessed ourselves over and over and over again.  And we have never before thrown ourselves into the arms of Jesus like we did on that trip…….and the months after.

And do you know what happened?  Jesus showed up.  He came through.  I’m not sure why that surprises me……He was the one that talked me into adopting in the first place.

Christians that live a safe life and NEVER reach outside of their comfort zone are missing out.  Jesus is there for you, he is with you, but if you don’t ever reach the point where you need Him so desperately, then true surrender may escape you.

Risk is where our faith is truly measured.

2 responses to “Be Afraid

  1. Jenny Zabrocki. You are a beautiful person. And I love you. Thank you for sharing this with me.

    And you’re lucky I’m not on facebook right now. It would be very hard for me not to share your posts there…they speak my heart.

  2. JZ, you are one of the people who truly “walk the talk” about living outside the comfort zone. i am often astounded at how much you take on with such grace. you are changing lives my friend and i am delighted to watch it happen. you’ve even inspired me to try it! 🙂 no adopting though, i can’t handle more children!

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