I don’t make New Year’s resolutions. I’ll just let you know that up front.
I am fully aware that I can’t do anything for 12 months. I’m just not a follow-througher you could say.
I have beautifully chronicled scrapbooks for the first year of 2 and 1/2 of my 4 children.
When my babies were born and people would ask “How long are you planning on breast-feeding?” I would always respond with “Through the end of the day.” That was as far as I could guarantee without my stress meter hitting the roof.
My children do not get Advent Calender at Christmas. Seriously people, 25 days IN A ROW I’m supposed to remember to open that little box of candy. I tried. Doesn’t happen.
Instead of dieting, I just eat what I want and if I happen to achieve an actually healthy day or go to the gym, I consider myself a cheater on my normal diet. Makes me a winner almost every day!
So why this year?
It all started when my friend sent me this link to Tenth Avenue North’s new song Worn.
Sometimes my soul feels crushed by the weight of this world. More people today are slaves than at any other time in history, we have a record amount of parentless children, funerals were beginning for beautiful children out east, my second daughter was having a moment of deep grief over her disability, crying out in sorrow, and my oldest had “failed” at one more thing in her life and she was feeling hopeless, begging me to get her out of the challenge that was ahead of her.
I know I need to life my eyes up, but I’m too weak, life just won’t let up
and I know that You can give me rest
so I cry out with all that I have left…
Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggles end
I want to know a song can rise from the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Then I saw the sun come up one morning on our road trip down south. And it gave me such hope. Not just for me, because my life has so much joy in it so often, but for all those who right now feel broken and hurt. For all the unknown people and children that I read about and pray about every day. I realized the only way for redemption to win is for this world to find love.
So here is my New Year’s Resolution
Help Love Win
It isn’t always as easy as it sounds, but it will change the world around me.
What will I do?
Small things: smile at strangers more, children especially so they know that there is love and safety in this world. Listen better. Hold someone’s door. Put love out into the world through the things I do and say.
I will ask strangers how their day is, and really intend to listen.
I will babysit a young mother’s children.
I will check in on my friends that I have not checked in on in some time.
I will remind one child that she is far more than her disability.
I will help another daughter overcome her challenges instead of just removing them for her.
I will kiss my husband more and thank him for who he is.
I will host a child from Safe Families, expect nothing in return, and love on that child for as long as I have him/her in my home.
I will write to Emebet and Eshetu, my Compassion International kids because my letters are the only mail they get and someone on the other side of the world can and does love them.
Instead of comparing myself to other women I will rejoice in their achievements.
I will make one young girl a child with parents this year.
I will love, to the best of my abilities and in ways that I can’t even imagine. And I will not feel worn any longer, because putting out love makes a person feel love on the inside.
Life isn’t easy. But love makes it worth living. Love heals wounds. Love changes lives.
If you haven’t made a resolution yet, join in on mine. Looking through the lens of Love, I can see redemption win.